I Live For You, I Long For You, Taylor Swift?

Back in 2015, One Direction released their most recent album Made In the AM. One song in particular stood out from the rest called Olivia. Now we have already heard about Diana, and Georgia Rose, but who was this Olivia the boys were singing about? Continue reading


Things I Will Never Get Over 

Hey everyone! So every so often something happens in my life or I’m reminded of something and I realize I will never get over it. These can be things that are amazing or things that I will always be bitter about. While this list is endless, I figured I would share ones that maybe other fans could relate to! In no particular order, here are some things I will never get over. Continue reading

Made In the AM Track by Track Album Review

Its crazy to think it hasn’t even been a full year since I made my Four review. One Direction has released their fifth album in less than a year from the last one. To be honest, I’m not even over … Continue reading

1DFirstListen: Everything You Need to Know about Made In the A.M.

Recently I had the opportunity to attend the One Direction First Listen in Boston and it was quite the experience. I knew that I was not prepared yet, nor would I ever be, to listen to this album, but now that I have, my life has forever changed. As amazing as it was to hear the album way before it comes out, accompanied with explanations from the boys about what went into each song, it is absolute TORTURE having to wait about week and half to hear them again in full. So as the savvy blogger I am (jokes) I brought along a notebook and a pen and physically wrote down just about everything from my experience at the first listen. Now I signed a non disclosure agreement but since there are no real specifics in this post, and I’m protected under the freedom of speech (thanks dad), I’m going to share my thoughts, first impressions, and overall experience at this first listen. Before you read let me tell you though that this album is no joke. It is so different from the other albums in that you can really tell all four poured their hearts out into these songs, the lyrics are much more mature and advanced, each song has a very different sound to it, and you’ll be having all your friends texting you about these songs saying “I didn’t know that was One Direction!” It could be my bias, but after just one listen, I feel they may have a shot at a grammy. On with the review!

Just sat down in the theater after waiting in the cold for an hour. The teenagers behind me are dressed in their warm one direction attire aka, crew necks with Harry or Louis’s tattoos. A group of them will not stop saying chonce as if its the funniest thing they have ever heard. I’m pretty sure its past half of these kids bedtime. The poster in the lobby (seen above) has been extremely violated with just about everyone grabbing Harry’s dick or sitting on Louis face. As I walked into the theater I was greeted by the sounds of the new single Perfect and the image of Harry pulling the sheets showing his vine tattoos on a huge movie theater screen. Safe to say I’m already overwhelmed and I haven’t even heard a new song yet. This theater is packed and is now an impromptu sing a long as we all sing along to Perfect. Some girls are already crying and I’m mentally trying to prepare myself for THE part. Girls around me are screaming at the top of their lungs as if the actual Harry Styles is in this room. I’m feeling a big cheeky so I yell out “TAYLOR SWIFT” as Harry has his tantrum on the bed, only to have the three rows in front of me turn around and try to kill me with their eyes. Soz Larry shippers, the song is about Taylor please get over your fantasy.

Just when I thought the screams couldn’t get any louder after Perfect, a beautiful beach takes up the screen and everyone knows what that means…What Makes You Beautiful. More girls around me start to cry as we are forced to watch the fetus boys frolic on a beach and have no clue what they are doing as they film their first music video. Sony security is dancing in the aisle as they keep a watchful eye out for cellphone usage. While Liam starts the song, the screams don’t start until Harry starts singing which becomes a pattern throughout the night. I scream for Liam because that’s the moment I fell in love with this band. The moment I saw a curly headed Liam singing to me on a beach I was sold. I signed away my soul and dove head first up one direction’s asses. An interesting fact is that only about half the theater screamed for Zayn, with a little murmur of boos. Tough crowd, some people are still salty. I go to write down these notes when all of a sudden the entire place shakes with screams because the then 16 -18 year old boys are now shirtless in the water. Moment of silence for their untattooed torsos.

We are about 20 minutes from the start time so you know what that means.. more music videos. Before we get the new music we are blessed with a walk down memory lane as we watch Live While We’re Young featuring the entire audience rowing along, Kiss You featuring blood curdling screams for the shirtless scenes and Harry’s nipples, Best Song Ever accompanied by upset screams due to the fact they cut out the beginning talking bit (at this point I was so emotional because 2013 Harry in BSE is the bane of my existence). Story of My Life which I hadn’t seen in forever, consisted of me screaming for my favs…you know who I’m talking about…no not the boys! I’m talking about Anne, Geoff, and Greg! The looks I got for screaming for Geoff and Karen were priceless. Last but not least they played Steal My Girl and that’s when it finally hit me. The FOUR era is over, in the past, and now tonight I embark on my journey through the Made In the AM era. After the shit show of 2015, who knows what the next year with the boys on break will bring. The screen is showing a warning sign about cell phone usage, this is actually happening

Intro Video

The movie starts with the boys being asked what its like to have done 5 albums in 5 years. The boys give their typical answers about how now its time for a break and they were so lucky that us fans allowed them to work and achieve success at that pace. I’ve noticed Harry has not shaved for this interview because there is a clear line of peach fuzz along his upper lip. The camera really zooms in on Niall drawing me to look at his teeth and admire how beautiful they are. While Louis, Liam, and Niall managed to answer the question in a sentence or two Harry takes forever to answer a question. This little interview modeled the teasers that 1DHQ had been posting.  Some new information from this interview included Liam saying that they are “rubbish” at picking song titles which gained a collective laugh from the audience. Silent “ughs” as Louis explained why the album is titled what it is in his adorable Yorkshire accent. I was mesmerized by the way his mouth moved as he spoke.

Hey Angel

Before the song starts and I realize there is no going back and this album thing is happening and ready or not here it comes, the boys explain that Hey Angel is not a sad song. Harry in his long winded way describes it as this album’s “Clouds” in that its “stabby.” A strange adjective for sure but not as strange as the thirteen year old sitting next to me responding to Harry saying “stab me with your dick.” Yeah that was uncomfortable. I had expected to this song to be a ballad given the heaviness of the lyrics Harry has been tweeting but I was surprised with the energetic beat.

Instead of us just listening to the song, it has been paired with footage of the boys. For this song they showed Harry in his maroon with gold detail jacket taking pictures from inside a car. I love photographer Harry and we usually only get pictures of it so having a video of it was pretty amazing. Harry’s vocals are so much in this song. That’s literally what I wrote down “Harry’s vocals are so much” Harry has that voice where he has so much intensity that it sounds like he’s screaming but he’s only just singing. This song is full of that, especially for some of the hard hitting lyrics. It’s very music driven as it carries the chorus and intensifies and mellows out. More video footage included Harry with his manbun playing the guitar which prompted numerous screams followed by shhhhs and IM TRYING TO FUCKING LISTEN HAVE SOME RESPECT! from a few audience members. Niall also danced on his private jet like the cute leprechaun he is. This song is definitely a Harry song and in my opinion now that I have heard it in its entirety, its a great track to really set you up for what to expect on this album and what the aesthetic of the songs all together will be. I summed it up as a great driving song or a song that the lyrics just really impact you.

Drag Me Down

We’ve all heard it, we’ve all seen the video, so what was this track?  A proper sing along. As a single this songs absolutely kills but I was curious to see how it would fit on the album as a whole. As the boys explained the song and how its an anthem for all they have been through and a response to all the shots fired at them, I couldn’t help but just stare at Liam’s lips. The video started and I’m convulsing because of Harry and then snapped out of it as the place erupted into screams from when Louis appears out of nowhere. Now I know how I sing my One Direction songs in that when the choruses are repeated I sing every single interjection, note change, you name it, but I didn’t know that everyone else does that to. The entire theater never finished the chorus and instead all attempted Harry’s high notes at the end of the song. I wish I had earplugs but at least they drowned out my own singing.


Harry and Louis described Perfect and how it isn’t a love song but it is and that its about having fun and not being in a serious relationship. The screen alternated between showing the song title and the video which caused many problems. Everyone screamed when they didn’t show the Haylor part. Screams of bloody murder because all they wanted was to see Harry lie down on a bed but they don’t like Taylor which was shown when Harry said the song is about just having fun and its not a romantic song. Harry explains it saying “I’m not perfect but I’m perfect for you”

For my real reaction to Perfect click HERE


The last of the songs we have already heard meaning everything from this point on is new material. At this point I was taking deep breaths after making this realization. Louis explained that this song was created on the first day of writing and in his opinion, is the most epic on the entire album. I think he is referring to the major beat drop, choral like feel to the song, and Harry’s intensity

“Yeah I’m glad that one’s on there”- Harry about the song

This song was accompanied with footage from the Honda Civic Tour Diaries. We got to see boxing Harry, birthday boy Liam, Niall and Louis having a laugh, the boys dancing around on stage, and it basically put me in post concert depression now that OTRA is officially over. A highlight of the night for me was when a close up of Harry’s gold boots appeared on the screen and I screamed my fucking head off. They creatively used footage of the songs with everyone’s cell phone lights when the song talked about the stars. It was a really nice audio and video pairing

End of the Day

To be honest I fully expected this one to be Harry on a loop saying End of the Day like he did in the younger days. In all honesty, I would thoroughly enjoy that. This song is completely bipolar in that the verses stand alone to the chorus but they somehow make such an awesome song. Louis’s eyes lit up as he talked about how the song has its different pieces and he thinks its cool that no one really expects it. After hearing the song I understood why Louis was so excited for it. Brace yourselves…LOUIS HAS AN INSANE SOLO THAT ENDS WITH A HIGH NOTE IN THIS SONG!!! You heard me, prepare yourselves because this album gives you all the Louis vocals you always wanted but never got. The videos shown with this song included the boys on their photoshoot for Between Us which was adorable enough. This song is super catchy and I found myself at work singing the chorus over and over because it really stuck out and its the only part I know. Harry has some awesome notes in this song and the guitar is just insane.

“LOVE IT!! SO GOOD!!” – my handwritten notes

If I Could Fly

Harry is making me lose brain cells as he takes forever and a day to repeat the same idea in three different ways talking about this song. I instantly perk when I hear him say “piano” because that’s something we haven’t had since They Don’t Know About Us on Take Me Home. The boys voices with piano? Sign me the fuck up. Harry droned on and on about how for this album they really got to “Sit and focus” on what they were writing. He also took the time to shade Rock Me while explaining they got to write songs they truly wanted to write that didn’t need a “boom boom ah”

Int: “Can you fly?”

Harry: “No”

It’s a piano song with a  slow, sad, depressing feel to it. This song just made me sad and it was hard to listen to for the first time in just one take. Harry really takes over this song and on top of all that, they showed 2012 footage! Footage of the fetuses during their first bits of promo and interviewers and causing trouble at radio stations. For some reason the footage was very Larry based and it showed a lot of Louis and Harry together when they used to be close friends back then. One scene showed Harry on some car thing and Louis pushing him the whole way.

LOUIS VOICE!! in this song its everything, and whats more? HE HAS ANOTHER SUPER NOTE. Everyone’s vocals are amazing in this, the piano and lack of big music behind them really allows them to show off their pipes. The song seemed to repeat “For your eyes only” multiple times as the footage showed the boys shoving Harry into a British flag cake and just about everyone was crying because we weren’t expecting such old footage.

Long Way Down

This was described by Liam as “quite sad” and is definitely about the upcoming break. Liam describes it as a mountain and how they are slowing coming down from the peak and that the song itself musically mirrors that. A big shock in this was when Liam said ” a couple of years off” which was weird because they have been saying its going to be a shorter break then we all think in other interviews.  The song is also about Sophia kinda. I’m not sure when this was filmed but there was a sadness in Liam’s explanation that gave me that impression. Niall lightens the mood a bit talking about how they asked for him to sing like Springsteen and have some grit to his voice for the song. I found this song to be really sad, I remember getting very emotional about it because the lyrics sounded as if they were saying goodbye to us. It gave me a feeling that they feel like they are coming down from their success and that this is the end.

“Built it up so high and now I’m falling it’s a long way down”

This song was paired with more OTRA footage of the guys onstage and some backstage things for which someone screamed “get out Lottie!”

Never Enough

Boy oh boy is there a story for this one. Picture this, you just heard a song that makes you think maybe they boys aren’t coming back and this is sort of like a goodbye album and then you hear Never Enough is next. This song has been thrown out by Niall here there and everywhere that it’s his favorite. Niall is going on and on in the video about how they incorporated a trumpet, trombone, and a saxophone, something completely foreign to a one direction song. I’m so pumped for this, it has been so teased and it starts and its so great and I’m dancing in my seat getting lit and then the lights turn on and the movie is now a blank screen.

Security guards come in asking for “Julia on twitter” because she has been tweeting and leaking content. As fangirls we know our shit so everyone races to find her twitter. We were given an ultimatum that Julia turns herself in or they wont put the listen back on. Girls start screaming about how they are gonna kill her, how the boys work so hard and they can’t believe someone is disrespectful enough to leak it and blah blah blah. We later found out that Julia wasn’t even in our theater, that she had gone to an earlier showing and was just now leaking it. Security hadn’t even checked the timestamp on the tweets (7:20) which is way before our theater even heard any new music. It was all a big misunderstanding but it took away from my experience listening to Never Enough. It had a kind of “Hooked on a Feeling” feel with all the grunting and new sound.


Harry makes no sense as he explains this song saying its about someone but its not about someone and its about Olivia but its about everyone…I truly have no idea what he was saying. This is the song that Liam teased a bit of and I was so excited to hear it!

There’s some talking before the song starts which took me right back to Jonas Brothers and Lovebug #tbt. There is a new sound to this, almost like a musical but just enough to still be taken seriously. It’s pretty, and happy go lucky and again has an oldies, kinda Beatles feel to it.

These lyrics are from Olivia

What A Feeling

Described by the boys as “super Fleetwood” which was so evident once I finally heard it. Louis admitted he likes to listen to this song because he feels like a “bit of a chief”. It has a really cool vibe, very chilled out similar to Fireproof. In fact I think Fireproof could stand as a prequel for most of the songs on this album. I really like the lyrics to this song and how easy going it is. It is very Fleetwood which I think works perfectly to describe it.

Love You Goodbye

Explained by Louis as being the most personal to him about a situation in which you see your ex again and maybe want to give it one more try. All those feelings come back but you have to accept that its your ex. (Aw Eleanor). Liam and Louis have claimed this track as one of the their favorites on the album.

“Good one to perform” – Harry’s words of wisdom

This killed me because who knows when they will ever perform it besides the London Session. This song marks Louis’s third big stand out note on the album! I love that Louis is finally more confident in his vocals and is attacking these big parts of the songs. Harry’s voice is so low in this song. More OTRA footage was shown.

I Want to Write You a Song

Liam really likes this song and said out of all the songs they have ever written, this is the song that he would write for someone. (Aw Sophiam) Which is ironic to him because the song is about writing a song! Liam explains the little details that make the song such as the sound of pencil and paper that appears in the background. He described it as “soft, sad, with a bit of grovel.” This song is as cute as it can get. Think Truly Madly Deeply, but 100 times cuter!! Its honestly so fucking cute I almost cried. All I kept writing in my notebook was “so fucking cute.” The footage for this was the lovely Take Me Home photoshoot where the boys wore fancy clothes and piled around a telephone booth to get that perfect album shot. One thing that should be noted that I thought was a bit rude was how much effort they put in to truly conceal Zayn. I find this rude because yes he left the band, but he was there for those days and it’s so unnecessary to pretend as if he wasn’t there at all. Despite the footage the song is so loving and cute and I just wish they would sing it to me.


**I’m writing this at 11:00pm on 11/5/15 so I don’t know if this song has dropped today (11/6/15) when this is posted.

Nothing is more tear inducing than when the boys describe a song as “for ourselves and the fans” Niall touches on the how much this band has done and how much they have gone through in the past year but is sure to add “LETS NOT STOP NOW” Which is weird because of the other songs that seem to be saying goodbye but I trust him. This song had super old footage, like younger than 2012, the first few times that the boys were filmed after x factor. I label it as an anthem for 1D with a Toy Story feel. It has that Randy Newman, You’ve Got a Friend In Me, kinda of style which is so adorable. (Liam has just recently said in an interview that its a modern You’ve Got A  Friend in Me.. Point for me!) Hearing the boys sing about how much fun they have while watching them have fun had me grinning from ear to ear. Louis has most standout parts, and the song has an overall message that they don’t want fans to forget about them.

Temporary Fix

THIS SONG IS MY EVERYTHING. ITS NO CONTROL PART 2. ITS THE MOST ADULT AND SEXUALLY CHARGED ON THE ENTIRE ALBUM, ITS MY ABSOLUTE FAVORITE. Niall explains that the album was missing a rock song and that he was thinking something along the lines of Sex on Fire. He also explained that it has a bit of love and dirt. Niall tells us that its about picking up girl in bar who is approached by men but doesn’t want them. I would classify this as a booty call song. If you’ve heard the preview then you know that its about offering to be something temporary for someone, nothing serious, just some fun.This song is so damn sexy, which did not fit with the 1D Orlando footage. I would have much rather watched the Talk Dirty video along with this song.

“Everyone has a grungy night out” – Niall Horan

“Let me touch you where your hottest” – CAN YOU NOT, these damn lyrics

Walking in the Wind 

Harry explains the Paul Simon influence to this song and how it is quite casual and conversational. I found that the music sounds  a bit like “oh what a night” from Jersey Boys. Its a sweet song that gave me the impression that its about Zayn leaving but it could also be about anyone leaving. They showed Story of My Life behind the scenes footage for this song.


At this point I got paranoid that security was watching me write things down so I didn’t write much but I remembered that I really really liked this song. Liam’s explanation was so cute! About guys approaching his girl making him want to fight. I’m sure you have all seen the video by now.


Talking out of our asses

Talking out of our asses

Talking out of our asses

This song is adorable about those late night conversations everyone has in the wee hours of the morning. That’s when true friendships are made and bonds are formed. It makes me all warm and tingly thinking about these boys staying up late together just talking shit and drinking. AH DOR AH BLE

“You don’t remember 2am but you remember 6am because you’ve sobered up by then”-Niall

That’s all folks! A little insight into this album that is sure to fuck you up and make you the happiest you have ever been at the same time. I’m not lying when I say this album is amazing. I truly think the song writing, the maturing, the themes, the relatability will put this album in a class of their own. Honest opinion I would compare it to Red. If you have heard Taylor’s album, you will know that Red has its fun songs, and its sad songs, and its hits. Thats what this album is, it can be serious, it can be hella fun, and it has some great singles. Either way the boys truly poured themselves into this album. It doesn’t sound that different without Zayn, and it feels so authentic compared to their earlier songs. There is something for every genre, there is no “Once In a Lifetime” dreaded track, there are so many new music styles, so many old influences to appeal to other audiences. My favorites are Temporary Fix, I Want To Write You A Song, Never Enough, History, and A.M. Did you go to a first listen? Have you listened to the shitty leaks? What do you think?

I am so grateful I was able to attend the First Listen, and I hope what I’ve said gives you just enough insight that has you begging for this album like I have been ever since the first song started.

Perfect Music Video Reaction

Hello friends! How are you? I’m doing just fucking fantastic. You know, just trying to live life and Harry, Liam, Louis, and Niall just aren’t letting that happen. On Tuesday we were blessed with a brand new music video! I fully expected this video to drop late on Thursday like Drag Me Down but then they decided to throw everyone off and release it AT A REASONABLE HOUR!! .

I spent the day at work alternating between entering numbers and checking Twitter as one does, and saw lots of tweets about the Perfect music video premiering that day. Now no offense to update accounts and whatnot, but I usually don’t believe a damn word they say without any receipts. So for the few times they do have proof it’s great! Well anyway I expected this to be just a rumor, so much has been going on with this fandom and rumors so I just mentally added it to the list of things that won’t happen. Then all of sudden, checked Twitter again..and it was a FLOOD of black and white gorgeous photos of these boys. That’s when I knew something was up! After saving each one to my camera roll and doing more work I checked Twitter again and what’s this!?! Snippets of the video!!! Now you might hate me for this but I don’t really care about leaked stuff because I believe in instant gratification, so of course anything that leaks, video or songs, I will not hesitate to listen or view it. I spent my lunch break replaying and replaying these snippets. I could do an entire post just on how much I love this song (stay tuned) but this will be more of my reaction.

Fast forward through the day and I’m counting down the minutes till 7 o’clock. After the Liam drama and people thinking he had brain cancer and the band was breaking up and all the crazy things people conspire about…I truly didn’t think it was going to happen..but I checked anyway! Right at 7 I popped over to Vevo and hit play just as Louis tweeted about it. What you are about to read are my reactions to the video the very first time I saw it. Major warning: I’m a HUGE Haylor shipper and yes the song IS about her so I will most likely talk about it for certain parts. For your pleasure I have included just about every gif I could find of this video. Enjoy!!!

Here we have Niall looking into the distance day dreaming about what life will be like without his boot. LOVING the black and white

WAS NOT READY FOR THAT CLOSE UP OF LIAM! Yes boy work that hand tat like the model you are!

Okay why can’t I see Louis face..he already has the smallest part in this song and now the song is blocking those gorgeous cheekbones.

The camera work in this is so great, it feels so artsy and mature. This is what I imagine it’s like to be stuck in a hotel room all day, you just sit in the window staring down at the city below you

I wanna be, where the people are, I wanna see, wanna see them dancing!

Alright if Liam is showing us a picture why did the camera never focus

Do you think Niall has smelly feet?

Harry looks so fucking good in that window, his height his body, I don’t know but that window was made for him to stand in

I feel like I was just slapped by Louis and I couldn’t be more honored

Liam is all about having no personal space this is great

Niall practicing his putting in the hotel room! Why am I not surprised!!! Trying to make up for that swing at the masters

Here we have Harry wondering if he left the stove on, or thinking about what new fall flavor of Froyo he should get

I suggest pumpkin, its my favorite 🙂


His hair is so long my god

THEY DID NOT JUST SHOW HIM SAYING RENDEZVOUS!!! This is too much to handle considering that part makes me melt every damn time

Causing trouble in hotels rooms means making a mess of the bed? I thought they would make a mess of the bed in another way….

And you know that Harry spent a good five minutes apologizing to each hotel employee after the damage was done.



Let me give you a little close up

Liam will have a modeling contract by the end of this video, he is just simply sitting in the window and using those puppy dog eyes and I’m on the edge

Wow Harry such a rebel, throwing books! How dare you?!


Ugh the things I would do to be hugged by Liam Payne with such a big smile on his face


Is the brunette Sophia? The girl almighty in the flesh??

It’s not Sophia who the heck is she??

This is so cute I don’t know why I’m tearing up over four friends sitting at a table conversing and drinking tea..

Also obsessed with how Harry talks with his hand, if you’ve been paying attention to promo season you know what I mean


Harry is so aggressive towards the camera I love this

LOUIS!!! Loving this close up as he tells me I’m perfect

Harry covering her face, he definitely did that for her safety, hide the pitchforks we don’t even have a suspect

Harry stop it I’m done with you

Niall strumming yes this is the shit I like

Niall looks so sexy, not cute, sexy, this is a break through

Oh that passion in the hallway NIALL WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME

HARRY DANCING IN HIS SUIT! Is this how he tries things on? Please tell me he goes into dressing rooms and tests his clothes out by dancing in them

This video is so authentic, it’s just the four of them doing what they love in their spare time. They aren’t acting, it’s so candid. Harry loves fashion and dressing up and journaling, Niall loves playing golf and his guitar, Liam and Louis are inseparable and love playing a bit of footy and trashing the damn place. It’s just authentic and raw and I’m not over it.

Ayyyyyy security looking good

Niall is working these hallway shots

Harry looks so cute getting ready

just look at his hair

And his smile

And half his nipples

We are getting closer and closer to Liam each time I’m not prepared for his

Here is Harry thinking he’s so funny but..wait he actually is..this kid always has me laughing


Louis is so moody

Looks like Harry made the bed cuz he felt bad

Liam throwing that bag at Louis is One Direction throwing all this shit at us. An actual representation of how I feel after this video

I’m not even done but it’s




I’m literally waiting for this video to end with them getting kicked out of the hotel and having a laugh about it


Wait I’m getting scared… The break down is coming and I haven’t found one reference to Taylor yet


This can’t be sanitary


actually keep going I’m loving this

Hold on this kitchen looks familiar, what hotel is this anyway..

Wait a minute



Real talk though what about the other guests of the hotel…were they told they can’t leave their rooms? How was it possible.

Niall looks so fit I can’t

Here comes the passion! I love when Harry makes this face, sing your heart out love!!



Harry fucking styles is laying on a fucking bed having a proper strop about his emotional life and all I wanna do is lay next to him and play with his hair.

Jokes aside this video is breathtaking. That one scene alone is so beautiful and raw and meaningful and I will never stop talking about it

THE EYES!!! Why is this so much like Style!!!

He is so beautiful, just sitting on the edge of the bed and my fucking panties are across the room



Aww he’s still laying on the bed thinking about their love I can’t this is too much

Harry laying on a bed just puts all sorts of thoughts in my mind…I’m very overwhelmed right now


Okay well how many times is Harry gonna fix his hair

Liam wins he is playing up this camera any chance he gets

Louis in that sweater though so damn cuddly



You know what that means

Refresh not Replay

Well that was quite an experience, I really really like this video. I think it’s the most honest one and it really shows what these boys do and who they are. It felt so candid and special but at the same time it was very artsy and moody and brooding. The theme of the song was evident and was conveyed but it wasn’t like a story telling video. Well done boys!!!

I am not ready for this album

I am not ready for this album

I am not ready for this album

Drag Me Down Music Video Reaction

It’s 5 am, finally Friday, only one more day of work until freedom! You go to grab your phone and all you see is a sea of blue because you are blind as a bat. You bring the phone closer to your face only to see a dozen @onedirection tweets, along with twitter notifications from @Niallofficial @Harry_Styles, @Louis_Tomlinson, and @Real_Liam_Payne with a link to vevo. You mutter to yourself “those little shits!

That was me this morning, when I realized that a few hours after I tweeted this…

One Direction decided to drop the video for the song Drag Me Down which they dropped on the same night only three weeks ago. As a working woman, I do not appreciate these late night shenanigans.


I have lost sleep each night living in fear they are gonna just drop more and more surprises overnight when usually I’m right in the know of everything they are up to.

I love the song even without the video, in fact I wanted to do an entire post when the song came out, but I figured I could easily talk about it with the video. I spent the past two weeks with it on repeat. To me this song means so much because it is the start of a new era. With only four boys and missing a key vocalist, the roles in the songs have changed, I love that now each boy gets a chance to really show their vocals and command a section of the song. I am in no way saying that I like them better without Zayn, I’m just saying the new dynamic works for them and I’m excited for the next album now that everyone is going after what makes them happy.

The message of the song is absolutely adorable. I can’t help but think of Gemma and Anne, and Karen and Geoff, and even Greg Horan and the entire Tomlinson clan as these boys sing about the people who have supported them all their lives. The message also transcends into being thankful for the fans, without the fans, and all the support this year, they wouldn’t be able to keep doing what they love despite the circumstances. Louis and Niall really kill it. I think their vocals on this track are so impressive. I knew with WDBHG and No Control, in addition to taking on Zayn’s solos, that this next album will feature much more Nouis, such a change from the early days, Liam’s voice is so smooth and prefect. There is never anything bad to say about Liam’s vocals, he has been consistent since day one. HARRY FUCKING STYLES, with his long notes at the end which sound even more amazing live (I mean I imagine so…I still have a few more weeks till my OTRA show…)  his voice at 1:33 where I literally die and come back to life over 100 times. Such an amazing song.

So just like any One Direction fan who is glued to twitter for constant updates and conversation, it was no secret to any of us that the video would be filmed at NASA in Texas. So this got me thinking what this concept could possibly be. Gravity. Space, zero gravity, with zero gravity there is no way the boys could be dragged down right? Can’t drag me down because no gravity right? I fully expected these boys to be flying around at NASA in a zero gravity room. I was thinking something like the bumblefuck when they were all on wires for the You & I perfume. I liked the idea of NASA it’s something different. There was also lots of pressure for this video because in addition to it being the first one without Zayn, this fandom is DETERMINED to break the VEVO record and take it back from Queen Tay.

At 5am, I watched the video and drafted the following on my phone. Here is my complete, first time ever watching the video, reaction to Drag Me Down. I threw in some gifs and stuff to make if fun but the text is all my first thoughts. Enjoy!

So fucking cute in the little suits

Obsessed with Harry’s Jacket

He literally starts singing in my face, his hair looks so amazing, his fucking jaw, his skin looks beautiful. I need a moment..

Niam in the background fooling around haha love it,

In love with Liam’s hair

Niall dressed like Harry and it’s working for him…LOVE THE PURPLE BOOTS

(if you follow me on Twitter you’ll know I’m obsessed with Harry’s gold boots) and now Niall in colorful boots, surprised his isn’t in stripes and the Neil hat…best Niall has looked in a music video, you can fight me on this


Literally I thought they were gonna cut to Louis singing in some other location but the “5’9” lad comes from behind Harry…holy fuck, Narry laughing in the background and Niall covering his dick…

His little smile is adorable, second best Louis has looked in a music video (first being Night Changes)

LIAM LIAM LIAM being so sweaty and gorgeous, it’s like he’s at soul cycle with Harry, cannot wait for behind the scenes since they look like they are having so much fun with all the equipment

Harry and this fucking robot, how much you wanna bet he made it pick it’s nose and grab it’s dick. I also love the close up on this hands because we all know how much everyone loves Harry’s big hands

Oh shit here we have Louis driving something…lets take a walk down memory lane, when he drove the camper van and got pulled over for going too slow, when he drove the jeep and broke it, when he drove the boat in Midnight Memories, getting “pulled over” in Night Changes, and now they let Louis drive a spaceship!!!

Fuck Niall is working it!!!! He’s so proud of his chest hair, and he has so much energy, his little pelvic thrust on the beat drop


Honestly this music video cuts to so many different scenes so fast! It’s hard to take it all in!

Harold and this robot, he looks so heavenly, his fucking ringlets so perfect on his shoulder…

Liam is giving me all sorts of Captain America in training feels, my god he is rocking that sleeveless shirt and just total action movie leading man vibe.

I love that they show Louis for every Nobody Nobody because that is very important!

Harry’s hair blowing in the wind and his little…i don’t even know what to call it..maybe the dragging feet move??? Anyway I love it!!! The camera work on this is so great.

Dear god are they sending them into space??? Oh lord, is it gonna end like night changes and something goes wrong???

Little boys in their astronaut suits! Louis is so ready to go constantly smirking

Liam is flirting with this camera hardcore, I keep gasping Liam what are you doing to me!!!

Liam’s expression saying Drag Me Down…so adorable!

Niall and his vocals…plus actual Niall dancing along…recipe for my death


Please tell me they are gonna show the call and repeat part please please please!!!

Niall is sooooo smiley!!!

ALRIGHT I’m pausing right here because I fucking know the part that kills me is next and I am not ready at all for Harold to kill me

OMG NARRYYYYYYYY, Harry’s hair is all sorts of wild and I’m loving it!!

“Nothing left!”

Harry walking with the camera is CRACKING me up!! He’s walking with such haste!!!

Liam is killing it with the silent harmonies, so on point

Oh Jesus Christ he’s coming at the camera


****not making a comment on what is on the cup….but if I were to have an opinion about it I would say it was placed there to appease the Larry shippers because management knows it’s better to keep you all happy

FUCKING WALKING TO FUCK UP MY LIFE!!!! I’ve never had sexual fantasies about astronauts but I have a feeling that’s about to change

One little thing….there aren’t enough lights for the “all these lights they can’t blind me” line…it’s basically pitch black outside…

Harry should send this video in for a hair commercial campaign because every time that beat drops he is workingggggg itttt

Their looks of wonderment as they ascend in the elevator, I don’t know why but it makes me want to cry…it’s like a metaphor for watching them rise to the top. How they have done so much in five years, how this single broke records, it just gives me a lot of feels


OMG Harry has so much passion in this…he’s looking to win the Oscar or something because he is giving it his all!!! He literally just jumps right in front of everyone where did you come from!!


I’m terrified…this spaceship is going up

Harry’s notes are coming next, I really really need to pee…it’s 5am…I have work in 3 hours, I really need to pee,  I’m so anxious and hyped up and I don’t know if I’m going to make it

OH MY FUCKING GOD HARRY EDWARD STYLES THAT FACE, THAT VOICE, there is no way they lip synced this, they must have editors out the real audio, that face is so real it’s not even funny,


Final thoughts: thank the fucking lord they shipped them to space because I am so done with them. This video was amazing. Yes it’s not gonna be everyone’s cup of tea but it gave me just what I wanted. Each boy was fully displayed, it was completed split 4 ways and I love that, the song and the video feel equal. Space is so cool, and it’s such an out of the box concept that it works. I guess the real problem would be that this song makes me think of 1) the fans always being there 2) their families always being there…they already did the family thing, it would be unsafe to do a fan thing, so let’s just do the world a favor and ship these idiots off to space. My one wish for this video though is that it had a talking bit kinda like in BSE so we got more of a picture of what exactly was going on…instead of four men let lose at NASA…either way I love it, and will gladly contribute to the VEVO record .

THIS IS MY 50TH POST! LETS CELEBRATE! Let me know what you think!!! Tweet me @shelleyann1817 and tell your favorite moments and reactions! I would love to hear what you have to say!! Till next time, all the love x


Today Was a Busy Week for Us: A Breakdown of One Direction Drama

Well well well, we have made it. Give yourself a big ‘ol pat on the back for making it through the past two days. Ever since One Direction landed their cute little asses in New York city, it has been a whirlwind of news stories, media coverage, and non stop drama. Liam, Niall, Louis, and Zayn (former members count too) have had their fair share of headlines the past two days. Honestly, I’m just wondering when it will end..it seems like these guys can’t catch a break. 2015 hasn’t even ended yet and if you’re a part of the One Direction fandom, you’re probably already exhausted as fuck and just want to have a smooth sail into the end of the year. I can tell you right now that won’t be the case. Just when you think its getting calm, be prepared for something else to happen. At the end of the day, everyone is just doing their job…paps are supposed to take pics, media is supposed to report, and as long as One Direction is buzzing around the internet, it will only increase their popularity, ticket sales, and future album sales.

Leave Niam Alone!

It’s no surprise that One Direction has an insane amount of popularity and fans. In fact, if you didn’t know that..I don’t know where you have been. Even if you don’t follow the band, most of what goes on in their lives are general knowledge, or you can at least name one band member. These boys are in demand and extremely unattainable. Unless you have crazy luck or inside scoop…its likely you will never casually just bump into one of the boys. With the danger presented in this fanbase..its likely that the boys will never have just a basic meet and greet ever again. So what does that mean for the rest of us…you gotta hunt them down while you can. Now hunt is a strong word…I’m talking more along the lines of knowing where they will be, ASSESSING THE SITUATION, and then POLITELY asking for a picture or have a fun conversation. This excludes flinging a phone in their face, blocking them in so they have no choice but to stop for you, and interrupting them when they are trying to enjoy the day with family and friends.

There is always the argument that a celebrity decides to share their lives with us therefore its fair game and if I want a picture I will do anything to get them vs. They are human beings like everyone else and despite being in the public eye everyone is entitled to privacy #letmelive. I chose to go with the latter. I don’t think that a picture, as amazing as it would be, would be worth ruining their time or forcing them into it. But anyway, EVERYONE knew that the boys would be coming to New York City for GMA so everyone knew that the boys would be out and about in the city. In the past the boys have stopped for fans in the city but more recently things have changed. When the boys were in the city for WWA NYC, they stayed at 5 different hotels, making it impossible to meet all five and hopefully breaking up the crowds that would wait at the hotels. This time around, I’m not sure what the situation was..but I know people took it too far.

How do I know this…It was bad enough that both Liam AND Niall, needed to tweet about it as a plea to get the fans to back off.

I don’t think he could have been any more clear. Liam is just a guy who wants to walk around NYC with his girlfriend and his best friend just like millions of other humans do. My heart went out to him that people who claim to be “fans” would be screaming and shouting at him to the point that he would have to tweet his frustrations. It seems like people haven’t learned anything. While Zayn leaving is still unclear, the fans reactions to the cheating rumors and other things may have played a part in his leave. One member was already fed up and “claimed” he wanted time out of the spotlight…what’s to say that if things don’t change the others may feel the same? Wouldn’t you want a fanbase that supports you, not screams at you because they don’t get what they want? I’m disclaiming here that I don’t exactly know what happened and no one does unless you were there…but from Liam’s tweets, he was obviously upset by it and I have every right to be upset when someone, “fans” no less, make him upset.

As an avid user of Twitter and a follower of many fan accounts, I would like to think I know a bit about how certain people in NYC always find the guys and will always ask for a picture, despite having at least 30 or having past bad experiences with the boys. I wasn’t shocked at all when I heard that these tweets were directed towards those fans and others. As if this wasn’t enough..it seems as if the fans stopped the chase for Liam and went after a new target…

LIKE REALLY!! I totally understand wanting to meet your favorite celebrity, its all I ever want and dream about but sometimes enough is enough…The fact that he even had to tweet about people being persistent drove me over the edge. He already asked to be left alone and obviously people weren’t listening. The worst of it all is that some fans found these tweets rude and unappreciative… I mean c’mon.. THEY ARE HUMAN! Yes they are famous but they don’t owe you anything, they don’t get paid to stop and take pictures, they don’t have to take time out of their day, their personal time, just so you can meet them.. they just gave us a new single, and they are on a tour, at this point they have given us all that they can (except a studio version of teenage dirtbag but whatevs). Why would you want a picture with an unhappy celebrity..would you feel great about that? No, but maybe you would I don’t know your life!

Bottom line is, lets treat the boys as humans, if you run into them great, but let’s use a little discretion when deciding whether or not to ask for that selfie or interrupt what they are doing.

Who’s Your Daddy?

For some unborn fetus residing in the uterus of Briana Jungwirth, the answer to that question is Louis Tomlinson

That’s right! Louis Tomlinson has FINALLY confirmed that he is going to be the father of this child. This story has been circling in the media for a few weeks now. I was on vacation when I initially found out, just enjoying my day at Busch Gardens (Yes I know it’s owned by Seaworld Harry please don’t hate me) when my friend texted me “How are you taking the news lol” Sending me into a panic..WHAT NEWS WHAT IS HAPPENING!! I quickly got on twitter and the news was everywhere. An article about Louis being a father with his close friend Briana. At first I completely did not believe it. I actually laughed at it and how empty the article was. ” A close friend” as a source never means anything to me. I chose to believe things once they are confirmed or denied by the person involved. BUT THATS THE PROBLEM! Louis never tweeted about it, even to this day he has not TWEETED a single word about it being true or not.

It’s no secret that Louis doesn’t keep his mouth shut. He has always spoke his mind on twitter. The one time when it would have been the perfect instance to use his big mouth…he stays silent. There was a show later that night on that day and again LOUIS SAID NOTHING. I don’t even know how he went for so long without saying anything about the matter. At least it gave me enough time to weigh the options. Now I just want to say, having a child is extremely personal, he doesn’t owe it to anyone to explain himself, confirm or deny. It’s his life and he can share what he wants. I will always support him, baby or not, and that will never change. If it wasn’t true, great, the band carries on the same as before…but if it is true (this was at the time when I first found out, I know it is true now and couldn’t be happier for a baby Tommo!) what could this mean for the band?

Flash back to the Jonas fandom, ahh good times. Kevin Jonas announced with his wife Danielle in 2013 that they were expecting a baby. At the time I wasn’t expecting them to break up (STILL BITTER) but it did cross my mind just how Kevin would have a baby and still be able to tour and dedicate himself to the band. Now those feelings are flooding back; Louis’ biological dad left him at a young age leading me to believe that he would never want to not support or be there for this child. Does that mean that he can’t be there for the band? That they will have to stop touring? Who knows! Having a child could create an expiration date for the band, but after all we went through with Zayn, all the teasing of the 5th album already being finished, and the constant reassurance the boys give us about our support for them and they love what they do, I truly do not think that this baby will dramatically change things.

Flash forward to yesterday when the boys performed on GMA and here is the confirmation we have been waiting for!

“From one father from another congratulations”


Of course there are still people who don’t believe its true even though he has publicly confirmed it, but they can stay in denial that’s fine, they just won’t be invited to the baby shower, oh wells! I don’t have a fan account so I don’t share my 1D opinion as much as others, but I truly am so so so happy for Louis. He is going to be a great dad, he’s the kind of person that will do anything for his kid, he is the oldest of all his siblings so he knows how to handle children, and I honestly think he will be such a fun dad. I don’t know anything about Briana, I just remember seeing her in pictures with drunk Louis, but if anyone’s life is going to change its going to be hers. Once she starts showing and Louis starts interacting with her, its going to be everywhere, she’s going to be everywhere, and in a perfect world everyone would be nice and supportive to her. I wish her the best and a pregnancy should be exciting! Imagine waking up every day carrying an egg fertilized by LOUIS TOMLINSONS sperm?! She’s living the life!!

The End of An Era: Saying Goodbye to Zerrie

Perrie is an OG..Original girlfriend, among the ranks of Danielle Peazer and Eleanor Calder, Perrie has dated her 1D man since the fetus days. Zayn and Perrie were the strongest couple, the ones first in line to tie the knot, and a darling celebrity couple. Yesterday however, the news broke that Zayn has called it off. I’ll pause right here to let you cry it out. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!! THEY BROKE UP! AFTER ALL THE SHIT ZAYN HAS BEEN THROUGH THIS YEAR, HE NOW HAS A BREAK UP TO DEAL WITH.  And we can’t forget about Perrie, the poor girl so ready to marry Zayn, being so close with her family, and having her life planned out. This news is just devastating really. How strange is it that this article surfaces at the same time that the press is having a field day with the Louis baby confirmation…

Basically, the article says that Zayn dumped Perrie two weeks ago, both are devastated, and Perrie has taken off the ring as seen in Jesy’s instagram. Again, this was all third party info and there was no confirmation on either sides. It wasn’t until this E! news interview that we heard from one of them that this breakup is real.

No one knows the details except Zayn and Perrie. To me, this is part of Zayn’s Miley Cyrus transition. He may not take it all the way but he has already changed up his hair, left behind his past, and now has called off his engagement. Let’s be honest, what will help his solo career? Being single. More people will want to see single Zayn, this breakup will give him writing material, and as depressing and personal as it is..this could mean big things for his solo career. I’m just trying to see a bright side to this. I’m not trying to think about how he has a beautiful tattoo of her, how they share so many pets and a home, or how i will never ever get to hear a Zerrie duet which is something I have been waiting years for! I wish them both the best and hope the fans and their friends will be supportive and comforting.

Sophia is now the last 1D girlfriend standing

Oh Harold

Let’s be thankful that the only Harry Styles news is his GMA outfit! Finally the drama doesn’t revolve around him

Tight pants, Black boots, Curly hair flowing in the wind, and a St. Laurent jacket from the 2016 collection

Then there is Harold.* The Queen Himself. The Royal Cherub. The Crowning Flower. The Curly Princess.

Just beautiful

Let’s all just take a deep breath and be thankful that August 4th 2015 is over, just as Niall said: Today was a busy week for us

Let me know what you think! Comment or tweet me and let’s chat about the madness! @shelleyann1817

A Month Without Zayn :(

So today is April 25, while it is the perfect date (not too cold, not too hot, all you need is a light jacket) it also marks one month since One Direction released the life changing statement that Zayn was leaving One Direction. I’ll pause here to let you collect yourself because if you are like me you forgot all about this tragic event and until now haven’t even thought of it. Well during this time I lost all inspiration and such to make a post about my opinion and how it all made me feel, but now that its been a month, I figured what better day than today to dive into these emotions and talk about Zayn’s decision. I just want to say that during this time I went through so many emotions but at the end of the day I respect Zayns decision, I will always love him and support him, and I wish him all the best on his new journey.

I guess I could do this in a timeline kind of way. So think back to the beginning of 2015 when life was great, the tank was clean, and OTRA was just about to start. We all noticed how Zayn was tweeting way more than any member of 1D, he was dancing on stage, and he was even thanking his fans more than he ever had. This was a new Zayn from the quiet shy one we have come to know over the years. The fandom was loving every minute of this! Especially if you were a Zayn girl he was coming out of his shell and from what we saw he was loving life!.

Flash over a bit more down the road to the boys in Thailand…we all know what happened in Phuket…but for those of you who don’t…this is when Zayn’s cheating rumors arose. He was photographed with a girl named Lauren Rich holding hands. Lauren later posted a photo on her instagram of Zayn holding her torso. This would be all fine and dandy if Zayn wasn’t in a public relationship, not to mention ENGAGED, to Perrie Edwards from Little Mix. If I was an engaged man, drunk or not, I don’t think I would be touching other women in that way. So what happens after this??? Zayn gets thrown under the bus for cheating by every single news source possible. This isn’t the first time rumors like this have been linked to Zayn, so obviously this took some sort of a toll on him and Perrie

Next came something that no one really expected but accepted. Zayn has decided to take some time off the tour for stress, tweeted by his publicist that he would miss the shows in Jakarta and Manila. And then he sent out this tweet.

Zayn wasn’t very vocal when the rumors first started so it was nice that he finally broke the silence.
Manila and Jakarta shows past, people make up stories that the boys are all crying onstage, and then everyone expects Zayn to be recuperated and come back to tour. One Direction sends out a tweet of just a link and it brings you to a facebook post which basically says that Zayn has decided to leave One Direction. Keep in mind that March 25th was only a week away from April Fools day.

The statement goes on to say that Zayn wants to be a “normal 22 year old” and that Liam. Louis, Niall, and Harry will continue on as a four piece, will continue touring, and plan to release an album by the end of the year. Earlier this day I had an insane stomach ache, I was nauseous and shaking and decided to stay home from class. Thank god I did because I was in my dorm by myself when I found out, and immediately started getting texts and calls and going through the grieving cycle trying to grasp everything that was going on. I still can’t believe that he has decided to leave One Direction and still hasn’t made much of a statement or anything about it. Yes, there was an article from The Sun, but he was barely even quoted in it and all he did was say that Perrie is a good girl and that he really just wants to be a normal guy and focus on himself. So as of now we all are left to believe that Zayn left One Direction for his mental health and that he just doesn’t want the fame anymore. I mean this makes no sense because he will always be followed like he is today since he made his decision, people will always want to know what he is up to, and Perrie is still in the spotlight so I don’t see how Zayn would think he could be normal. Also if he wants to be a normal 22 year old he should help pay my college loans because that’s what 22 year olds do!

Hopefully you guys are still with me, so now the statement is out, Zayn has left One Direction, I’m crying and angry and pissed off and missing him and feeling bad for the boys…and then Naughtyboy starts running his mouth. While the world is watching the first official concert since Zayn has left, pictures of Zayn at the studio arise and who is he with? Whose studio is it? Naughtyboys. HOLD UP. So you mean to tell me Zayn wants to be a normal 22 year old yet he is RECORDING MUSIC????? Now the fandom is enraged! Those who were concerned for Zayns mental health now feel betrayed and lied to. Is Zayn lying us? Did he really leave One Direction to do his own thing? Either way the message is out that Zayn is now recording music. A few days later Naughtyboy gets on Louis nerves. They get in a bit of a twitter fight and low and behold Naughty drops a soundcloud of a Zayn demo……

Now its been confirmed Zayn was working on solo stuff and a bunch of secrets and unleashed. The fandom dug through Naughtyboys twitter and found tons of crypitc tweets indicating that Zayn has been working with him since September….tweeting lyrics and such to his song “I Won’t Mind” and whats even more… Simon Cowell has tweeted NB calling him a genius. At this point I don’t know who to trust…. so you are telling me that Simon Cowell is supporting Naughtyboy and Zayn even though its what broke up the band and made Zayn leave? You are also telling me that Zayn left to be normal yet he is going to launch a solo career. I’m sorry but is anything adding up????? There is also the question of how Zayn got out of the contract so easily…and now that he did he screwed over the boys to receive their bonus if all five stay together by the end of the contract.

Here is the song by the way.

So now the song has dropped, the fandom is a mess, still no word from Zayn. In fact, the tweet that dropped the song had Zayns signature 🙂 x in it so did he drop it? Did NB drop it? No one knows but it was done out of spite because of a fight with Louis. Is Zayn this guy who doesn’t care about his fans…why isnt he stopping NB… Since Zayn left things have been pretty calm, the boys continued to tour until it was the end of the leg. Zayn was removed from the opening video and the boys take turns covering his solos. Zayn and Perrie flee to France with the family, everyone holding their breath for a possible wedding, and of course posting loads and loads of instagrams of them on holiday. Luckily no rushed wedding occurred but now everyone is under the impression that things are fine with Perrie despite the Thailand incident. Also most people were blaming Perrie for Zayn leaving but now we see Naughtyboys involvement with it all and can place more of the blame on him.

The next and final stop in this month of hell would be Zayn’s recent appearance at the Asian Awards. He was named an ambassador a while ago and that night he was being honored. The fandom was going crazy waiting for this moment when Zayn would finally make a public appearance and be in the spotlight again. Keep in mind during this time Zayn was never tweeting or anything. In fact he didn’t make a return to twitter until 4/20 lol. So 4/17 the day of the awards, they are only relevant because Zayn is attending and he is finally there! He emerges from his ride with a clean shaven face…and head. Yup!! Zayn shaved his head! A new hair new me kinda of mentality. He spent his time on the red carpet with his mother as his date by his side and stopping to take pictures with fans. Zayn may not have ever said anything but since he did stop for the fans he gained some points back. It was heartbreaking to see that this is how it would be now, Zayn doing his own thing..but it was good to see him out and about and happy.

His speech is also adorable ignore NB

Listen for when he thanks the Four boys!

So now here we are a month later, Zayn has made an appearance, the other boys are writing again and Zayn has gone back to tweeting.

I think this tweet is funny because he’s def not thanking the fans he is thanking his family and NB

So what is my opinion on this? I figure its best for me to explain it through the different stages of grief.

Denial- So I’m still kind of in denial that he is gone. It’s weird he won’t be in any more music videos, any more commercials, any more interviews, any more merch. Its going to be so obvious that he is missing, its going to be hard to not hear him on the next album, to know he made this decision. But until that day comes, its like he’s still there. He is still in everything that exists now and until I see only four of them on tour I won’t ever fully grasp that he has left.

Anger- There is so much anger involved in all of this. I’m mad that the left the four behind, I’m mad that Naughtyboy is so happy about this, and I’m mad that Simon is somewhat involved. It’s truly upsetting that he said he wanted to be normal but he is doing some solo things…I just feel lied to honestly. And I will never really understand why he felt the need to leave. He left them in the middle of the tour. If this wasn’t about his mental state he easily could have ridden it out or even said something before he committed to it all. The album came out in November and the song was talked about in September.

Depression- The most common. I will always be said that Zayn left, everything will be different and that just not okay

Bargaining- Maybe its all for publicity, just trying to understand it all really. Also I am dead serious I think that one day he will come back once he is bored doing nothing. I hope maybe in a year or so. I mean the band had him set for life, why he would leave that when it was going so well? makes no sense

Lastly comes acceptance- If Zayn doesn’t want to be a part of it why should I want him to be a part of it. Why should I want this for him more than he does. It is what it is and it really really sucks but he is happy. Honestly I wouldn’t want him to keep faking it if this is what he really wants. Sometimes I notice things that basically foreshadowed all of this and I don’t know what to think about it. But at the end of the day I have to realize, he isnt dead, his memory will live on, and as long as he is happy I’m going to be okay with it.

I love you Zayn, this month has been hard but its all coming together

Opinion Post: Fandom Drama

Hi guys!! Thank you all so much for reading my posts! So I’ve taken a little break basically because of school and there’s just been a lot going on. Recently whenever I log onto my One Direction fan account infested Twitter, I see nothing but drama. Things were all calm and joyous before OTRA started and now that it has shit has hit the fan. I’m not even exaggerating when I say something new pops up every single day. So in this post I am going to discuss my opinion on this drama and maybe explore a point of view you haven’t thought of before. Bare with me because its long but I really really want to know your opinions! So tweet at me @shelleyann1817 and I’d love to talk to you all about this. If you haven’t noticed I absolutely love talking about One Direction at all hours of the day and with anyone. Also these are my opinions I am only speaking for myself based off of the things I have seen on twitter and trends and just things floating around.

**this post may contain spoilers**.

OTRA vs. WWA/ Japan vs Australia

Okay so I am first going to say that I was disappointed with the setlist. I didn’t feel it made sense to tour with a brand new album and sing a majority of songs from the last album. Don’t get me wrong I completely love Midnight Memories and I am so grateful the boys are on tour again and are coming to my city because I know a lot of people can’t say that. Also its not even about paying to see the same show because I went to two of WWA last year and honestly I would pay for VIP seats to see them even if they sang me the alphabet. I understand the frustration people feel in terms of the lack of practice the boys had and how people feel they aren’t taking it as seriously. For example, last night the boys sang Stockholm Syndrome for the first time on this tour. I feel Japan was the perfect place to do so because with their rules of respect it would be easy for the boys to focus on the performance. I was not impressed really when I saw the vines and saw that Zayn had forgotten the words and there were other bumps along the way. I can only imagine that Harry scolded them for messing up the song, while Zayn said the Japanese can’t understand him anyway. Then Liam raises his hand and says he didn’t mess up and then Louis smacks him on the back of the head saying he wasn’t too hungover and Niall watches while he inhales popcorn. (Totallyyyyyyy joking don’t take that scenario seriously)

I feel that as a fan I am allowed to have opinions about this so here goes. It seems strange to me that they would not know this song or rehearse this song. Most artists go on tour to see the fans but they also go to promote themselves, and what are the boys promoting, their new album FOUR. The only new song they added that we had never heard live before was Clouds. What happened to the rest of the album? Why isn’t that a focus? I feel like its a huge mistake to call it a new tour and use the same stage in different colors and basically the same setlist as the last tour. I understand Australia didn’t have WWA but that doesn’t mean they didn’t follow it on twitter, see the movie, or know nothing about it. Seeing the boys live in concert should be a great and new experience. I have already heard them sing Where Do Broken Hearts Go, Ready to Run, and Girl Almighty for tv performances, and how many times have we heard them sing Steal My Girl and Night Changes, its something very different to hear them in person I know but it would be amazing to hear something brand new live for the first time, a song from the album never heard live before.

So then there is the whole issue of Australia versus the world, well Japan. So in Australia a lot of crap went down like people being rude to the boys if they didn’t stop for pictures, hating on the tour they were given and so forth. Now in Japan everyone is kissing their ass. The way they arrange themselves at the airport, the way they don’t attack the boys when they see them, how they don’t wait outside hotels, basically how they give them space and privacy unlike some other places. I don’t really know what to say about all this, I think it more based on people and not places. Like when people say Australia was rude and ungrateful if they only met 3/5 or whatnot or if someone didn’t stop, that could just be the people themselves, because I know for a fact the same thing happens in other areas. In response to those people, I feel they should be more grateful, or if anything more secretive, like you can’t call one of them a curse word and be mad you missed 3/5 when you post selfies with 2/5…. keep your own hate to yourself where people won’t find it. This fandom gets so jealous, and I am completely one of those people who literally hate everything and everyone when they boys meet fans or hug them and whatnot because you just get that feeling it will never happen to you ever. So for a jealous fandom I wouldn’t tweet hate to someone and then post a tweet with your fav…people see everything and at that point you’re just asking for it.

Harry and Louis on the same plane

So I am just going to get this out of the way and say I am not a Larry shipper. I do not wish or think that Harry and Louis have a romantic relationship. That being said I have no ill feelings towards Larry shippers, everyone is entitled to their opinion and if you love Larry that’s great! One day I was on Twitter and it basically exploded because Harry and Louis were on the same plane. This was big news because lately the two haven’t had the relationship they used to. In my opinion, I think they have grown apart as friends. You can tell in interviews and on stage that they aren’t as close as they used to be, whether its because of the Larry drama or just Harry and Louis not being as close anymore because they have changed I do not know. However, this event created so much drama because there are some Larry shippers who will attack people who do not ship Larry and vice versa. Personally, I stay out of the drama, as I said everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but I do feel that the idea of Larry has added stress on their relationship as friends, BUT I DO NOT KNOW THEM AND NEVER WILL SO NOTHING I SAY OR ANYONE ELSE SAYS IN THE TRUTH. The most important thing we can do as fans is support them, and remember we do not know their lives, only what they decide to share with us 🙂

Niall and Melissa

Well WW3 happened as soon as the pictures of Niall and Melissa surfaced. With the rumors of Harry and Nadine (I’ll get to that later) Niall would technically be the only single member, but wait! He was seen with Melissa AND OMG THEY ARE DATING. Um no… I don’t understand why the minute the single guys are seen with anyone that they are dating. I believe in innocent until proven guilty, so basically I would say that Niall is single unless he tells us he has a girlfriend. While this may seem stupid, think about it, the 3/5 who have girlfriends have confirmed this fact many times, in various interviews. Niall is the most honest with us all, literally tweeting anything that comes to mind and always thinking about the fans, and he is the most carefree. I feel that if Niall was dating someone that he would be blunt with us and let us know because he cares. Literally a few blurry pictures surfaced and all of a sudden all the Niall girls were crying.

That’s another thing, I understand the feeling of loving someone so much that it hurts to know they have a special someone, its part of being a fangirl and I hate it. At the same time though, one day these boys will be married and it probably won’t be any of us so as soon as people grasp the concept the better. It wouldn’t be the end of the world if Niall was dating someone. He has been single for so long, since the beginning of the band, and I would love to see boyfriend Niall. As much as it sucks if your fav is dating someone, doesn’t it make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside hearing Liam talk about how much he loves Sophia or how happy Zayn is with Perrie. DON’T YOU WANT THE BOYS HAPPY. I’ve been team happiness from day one, and seeing them loving other girls makes me love them even more because they are great boyfriends who show they are loving people. How cute would it be to see the Irish Princess on dates with someone and holding hands and being a boyfriend to someone..I think it would be too cute to handle. I just think there are bigger problems in life than who the guys are dating, and that people shouldn’t jump to conclusions when very little evidence is out there.

For those who don’t know, this girl’s name is Melissa Whitelaw and she is a 21 year old student in Austrailia. No one knows for sure how she met Niall or anything like that. The fandom has found her instagram and apparently she had a boyfriend not too long ago..this boyfriend also made a huge rant on his insta indirecting Melissa and leaves even more questions unanswered. Also on Melissa’s instagram people told her to take care of Niall and make sure he gets fed 3 times a day and while it was very funny it was accompanied by hate, hate, and more hate. Basically I don’t believe any of it, once Niall tells us he is in a relationship then I will believe it.

Also I’m curious what you guys think of Niall, do you think he’s a virgin. I feel that Harry and the boys always use Niall to escape rumors or make sex jokes so sometimes I think he is a virgin and if Melissa is fulfilling his needs then GET IT NIALL!!

Harry and Nadine

While Harry spent his whole break in LA and I will never ever believe him when he says he’s sad he doesn’t get to see his family as much BECAUSE HE TOTALLY HAD THE TIME TOO, he spent time with Nadine Leopold. Nadine is a model who Harry has recently been linked with. Now Harry’s dating life is the most mysterious of all. Is she a fuck buddy? do they hook up? ARE THEY FRIENDS OR SOMETHING MOOOOORREEEE?? The real answer is who the fuck knows. They get froyo, they hang out with Jeff, they go to dinner, but we never see much more than that. Part of me wonders if he is hiding it. If you paid attention to Taylor’s album 1989, which tells the story of Haylor, you will come to the conclusion that the media destroyed Haylor and didn’t give it enough time to really become something. Without all the media attention could Haylor have lasted longer? Without sending Taylor death threats and tons of hate would Harry have been able to keep dating her. I used to think Haylor was PR but then she wrote a whole album about it NOT SAYING ANYTHING BAD ABOUT HIM AT ALL, she was super sweet and basically said she enjoyed it until it fell apart because of the outside world.

Anyway back to Nadine, could Harry be hiding his relationship with Nadine for the sake of the fans? Think about it, the girls who love him will be beyond upset. ESPECIALLY because Harry is put on a pedestal and there are fans who like 1D only for Harry. And then if he is with Nadine, the Larry shippers claim she is a beard since some think Eleanour is one and so on and so forth. Either way, Harry letting it known he is with Nadine would cause so much chaos. Does Jeff come along as a decoy to their dates? Is she only a friend that he enjoys hanging out with in LA? My opinion on all of this is that they are hooking up. I feel with timing and whatnot Harry is in a horrible place to start a relationship. They are on tour from Feb-October and being in a relationship with Nadine would be strictly long distance. We all know, and Harry for sure knows, that he is so fucking hot and can have anyone and charm the pants off anyone so he could easily be hooking up with her, having some fun in LA, getting his fix. The honest truth though is we will never know unless either of them say something. After seeing how Harry is when he is in a relationship, I don’t see the same signs with Nadine. They do things I would do with my guy friends so I never thought much of it, but it sure brings drama in the fandom!

Louis and Eleanor cigarette thing/ Louis says he’s gay

I was on tumblr one day and came across this post about how cigarettes are not allowed in magazines and someone related it to the pictures of Louis on the beach in Australia with El and he has a cig in his mouth. This was taken two ways: He does it to protect El, and he does it to promote Larry. Okay so basically I like Louis and El. I don’t like how El kinda hides and doesn’t let us see who she is but at the same time I understand because some fans can be vicious. This of course broke out a huge fight between the Larrys and the Anti Larrys about why Louis makes this decision. I feel that Louis has given enough proof to show that he really does love El, that it’s not management, and that they are in a genuine relationship. For this reason I think he uses the cig to protect El. I feel that these boys are so much smarter than we give them credit for. They know exactly how we feel about things or how we will react to things which leads them to make these decisions. The tweets, the drama, the posters do not go unnoticed. The boys are very aware that we like them single, that some people like them in a relationship, and that no matter what they do someone usually feels hurt about it. Louis could easily be helping El live a normal life, he knows its best if she isn’t in the public eye if she doesn’t have to be, and he knows that people will have very strong opinions about El if she is seen with him. Either way he is protecting her and thats boyfriend goals. The guys don’t want to hurt anyone, whether they agree with their opinion or not.

The whole vine thing was a hot mess and a half. A vine surfaced in which people thought that Louis said he is gay and that its pretty unfortunate. I read on twitter from girls that were there that someone said they have the same birthday as him and he said that it is pretty unfortunate considering it is Christmas Eve and whatnot…

Here is the vine you can decide what he says for yourself, but I think its the birthday thing.

Either way the media jumped on this. That’s one thing I forgot to mention. The media plays a huge part in all of this drama. They make up stories, report things with little evidence, and just stir up the pot. For example, E News did a whole story on Niall dating Melissa where they knew just as much as Twitter knew which was a video where hes flirty with her and some blurry photos. There were also multiple stories about this vine and Louis “coming out”. And don’t even get me started on Harry and Nadine, every single pop culture news source talked about them “dating.” Just adding more fuel to the fire where basically everything I mentioned is complete assumption and guess work NO ONE KNOWS FOR SURE, ONLY LIAM, LOUIS, NIALL, HARRY, AND ZAYN. Some people think that this fandom is completely ruining it for the boys. While I agree that most drama starts in conversation on Twitter, like when the fandom is bored and just decides to trend RIPHARRY, the media plays up on these facts. I can’t even tell you how many times a day someone comes up to me with a rumor about 1D and I shoot it down so fast. People believe almost everything they read. I think its better to take the facts, do your own research and make you own opinion. I also support EXPRESSING these opinions, as long as it is done in a respectful manner.

It would have been so easy for me to just spread so much hate and call people out and just go nuts with this topic. Instead I made an opinion and expressed it while acknowledging both sides. If you are a person who sends hate, whether it is to specific people, the boys friends and girlfriends, and other fan accounts and twitter users, just stop and think. Where is this getting you? What are you trying to accomplish? and How would you feel if someone attacked you? I don’t receive hate but I have friends that do and its disgusting. Remember that everyone, and seriously every human being, is allowed to have their own thoughts and share those thoughts, you may not agree and thats okay!! It’s okay to have difference of opinion, however it is not okay to jump to conclusions and be hateful towards eachother. I’ll end this post with this “Be Nice To Nice”

Think before you tweet, and challenge yourself to see from a different point of view, its all about respect. We wouldn’t want any of this drama to affect the boys to the point where they feel they can’t do anything anymore. I know they have thought they were being discreet by talking about how they get papped everywhere, can’t leave their hotel rooms, or its too dangerous to meet fans. They haven’t been, the message was made loud and clear how they feel and its our job to maybe make a difference. I’m not saying don’t stalk the crap out of them till you meet them, I encourage that, but be respectful, if they don’t stop remember they don’t have to. They don’t owe us anything, lets just sit back and enjoy the music and wherever this wild ride takes us.

Please please please comment or tweet me because I really want to know your opinions on all this. Also if you made it this far bless you 🙂

21 Tweets From User Harry Underscore Styles.

**Today I figured I would feature another guest blogger! I found Michele through her hilarious twitter account and figured why not ask her to use her sense of humor to make a post about @harry_styles ridiculously confusing tweets! I hope you enjoy and follow her blog HERE

Hi everyone!,

My name is Michele (@1d_overeighteen on twitter) and I am hopelessly in love with One Direction:) I am beyond happy that Shelley asked me to write on her blog and the fact that she asked me to write about my tiny frog son has made me 10x happier! Harry is literally my sunshine on rainy days and although I call him my frog son I do realize that he has grown up to be such a handsome and good man, he is polite, kind and always so giving. The one thing that has not changed about Harry since he made his twitter back in 2010, is his ability to tweet the most ridiculous things that leave us all contemplating the meaning of life.

What the absolute fuck would we do without Harry Styles tweeting??

The boy likes to keep his tweets just as he likes to keep every other aspect of his life, confusing and turning us all into very anxious, jealous, confused and aroused fangirls.

First off this is the face I picture Harry making after typing out his meaningful tweets. When I say meaningful I actually mean confusing:


“That tweet will be sure to confuse the shit out of them this time”
-Probably Harry



I’m Sorry, did you drop acid before sending this tweet??



Except Ketchup! Harry that shit stains.



This is one of those things that you would have never realized or never needed to know but hey, now ya know.



So think..your telling us to think?



This one just completely contradicts the whole “talk to yourself. just don’t answer yourself back” tweet.






Now picture Harry’s hair blowing in the wind as he comes sliding on his tummy down a slip and slide.




What kind of games would you be referring to? Could it perhaps be MONOPOLY..

So here are the monopoly pieces,

And I am just not sure if Harold would be the boat, the hat, the shoe or the little cool car?? They all individually tell me a lot about Harry as a person so could really be any of them.









Just because he is a kind soul.


twenty two

twentu threeWhy am I aroused???


twenty four

I don’t think thats a complete thought..



He was probably upside down in some odd yoga pose when he tweeted this.



Now this one could potentially be relatable.. but then I remember that Harry doesn’t have or do homework and so what on earth is he fucking talking about?


This tweet actually made me laugh because it was clearly a group joke between Harry, Candle and Cara, yet half the fandom was like “OMFG HARRY BOUGHT LOUIS A BUCKET HAT MY ASS IS FALLING OUT OF MY EAR THIS IS AMAZINGGINNJJKKKAA”

Like what?

I actually think thats the best thing about Harrys tweets is all fans replies, they usually look like this:

A. Spam spam spam

B.Changing his words so it looks as if the tweet was for/ about Louis.


C. Always gotta have that one girl that just can not control herself. #nocontrol

D. Confused




Especially Louis.



Friend: a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile -Dictionary.com

Pal: a very close, intimate friend; comrade; chum. -Dictionary.com

This one makes sense when you look it up.



Why was this the first thing I thought of?



Im just gonna leave that right there.


Judging by your tweets darling, we also think you think you think too much.

Love you dork! Happy birthday.

xoxo -Michele ( Mytrainheadingsomewhere.blogspot.com )